I mapped – out a 5-year plan for my life yesterday morning. Yes, I dared to plan my life for the next 5 years, carefully incorporating what I have learned in my Project Management program and after saying prayers for a year for guidance for a new mission. No, please don’t be under the impression that I have achieved everything that I have planned for last years. Sometimes, I feel that I am only good at life’s planning but execution is a class where I’m still a student and unceasingly trying my best not to remain a student.

Mapping – Out

I wrote Psalm 23 at the top of it as it was my guiding verse since the time I felt the Lord is preparing for something. Psalm 23 is about the Good Shepherd. I did not forget the set of values as a guiding ruler as wild planning can happen and drives a planner to desire the world but losing the self in the process.

As this is my first time to draw – out a five- year plan, I had to set the bigger picture but at the end asking myself what is the bigger picture. I felt it was the height of adulting calling for a mixture of fear and excitement. One thing I realized though, that as I plan through the years, fear is increasingly knocking at my heart harder each year. I truly used to be a dare-devil in my planning in earlier years, as early as university days, where I enjoyed bigtime whenever I ticked what I have accomplished. But through the years, I have found myself fearing my own blames whenever I didn’t get to do what I have planned to do.

The Fearless of Youth That I Needed
(The Lord Provided)

During the evening, I attended the first Liveloud Concert in Singapore. Liveloud is a Catholic Worship Band that has been singing the songs of the Charismatic community I belong to for the last 17 years. In one segment, the sign of Chi Rho was flashed. The lead worshipper explained that this is the secret code of the earlier Christians to tell fellow Christians that they are home and they have arrived in a refuge, as earlier Christians were persecuted. That sign is very familiar to me. (Not that I lived 2000 years ago. Lol. ) The sign of Chi Rho is the “rod” I saw from Bishops and the Pope, the Shepherds for the Catholic faith. The Good Shepherd is Psalm 23, the verse I wrote on my five year – plan earlier that day. Is it just a coincidence? Maybe, not. The moment Chi Rho sign was flashed, it occurred to me as “No Prisoner”. That thought reverberated in my mind while we continued to worship. “No Prisoner”.

When I got home, it dawn on me, that for “No Prisoner” to happen there is freedom. Freedom from fear, freedom from the yoke of slavery that burdened a prisoner.

Is this sign speaking to my plan?
Have I been drawing out a plan which based on fear?
Then, let there be freedom! Call the deliverer, Christ the King.

This morning I took that as a sign to declare and plan out what I really want to happen in my life – 5 years down the road of life. Let there be no fear to work on my desires which Christ, the Lord God has placed in my heart, today on this Feast of Christ the King, the Deliverer.

As I put out a new plan and pasted on my wall. I, too, signed it with Chi Rho. No prisoner.

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Thank you, Lord, for I can move my fingers making me able to use the keyboard.
When at that time when I just got out of the operating room, I can not move my entire body, not even my toes.
Thank you, Lord, for I can stand on my back and making me able to take a bath myself.
When at that time during the recovery, due to a foot-length wound at my back, it was the hospital aid who had to turn my body and bathed me.
Thank You, Lord, for the gift of night shift work, for I am awake and can do things freely while the rest of the world is sleeping at my zone.
Thank You, Lord, for I will come back to home tired after a day filled of completed tasks, sometimes overwhelmingly difficult tasks to be completed in a day.
When at that time, I was waiting for call-back calls from employers that I applied to.
Thank You, Lord, for reminders from my mother who constantly bugged me with calls and messages to come home early and eat my meals on time. When others long for presence of parents in their daily lives.
Thank You, Lord, for this single life, for I have freedom to do things relying on my self – made decisions. When others missed to see the gifts of freedom and envy with misery those romantic couples.
Thank You, Lord, for Your presence in every single moment of my life.
I look back today and You, Oh Lord has never ever abandoned me. You walked me through the valley of near death, the uphill of great achievement, the downhill of rejections and failures, the curves of sinful life leading me to the narrow road of righteous life.
Thank You, Lord, for your company.
May I always recognize Your big hand holding my lithe fragile hand.
Amen.

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