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We Still Have Two Months, Lord (Pushing for 2018 Goals)

“But bless the Lord Christ in your hearts, Always have an answer ready when you are called upon to account for your hope, but give it simply and with respect.” 1 Peter 3:15

Hello, November.

My 2018 plans is posted in my study area, an area located at the foot-side of my bed. So, every single morning, or more appropriately, since I work in a shift pattern, every single waking-up and sleeping – time morning, I get to see my 2018 Goals hanging there.

Seeing without looking is seeing without the other senses. You physically see that thing is there without giving full attention. And that’s how I treat my 2018 Goals these past few months.

Until today.

Today is November 2. As I remember the souls of my dearly departed, I gave – in to the temptation to see with full attention to my 2018 Goals. I look to it.

The Origin of My Planning
(Ang Alamat ng Pagtatakda)
I need to translate in Tagalog because its more fun. Because the rest of what I will write are seriously true.

Having gone under-the-knife for five surgeries already, 3 minor and 2 major and faced cancer scare in my life, I, (with long pause and deep breath) Benia, do solemnly swear that life is short and that only the Lord can give and take from us His greatest loan to us – the gift of life. In the same way, He determines our death, He alone can determine life (pregnancy/birth)… the covenant of marriage. (Makes beautiful eyes with the thought of marriage).

OK. Here’s the more serious part.

Life is short.

So, the greatest and most valuable thing that can go to waste is T-I-M-E.

I pray and I try with all my best and ask the Lord’s guidance so I can spend this life that He has given me and extended with intentionality.

I consider it a blessing that the Lord allowed me to feel to be facing a possibly imminent death (2-hour inside an MRI machine) and not having completed a mission in this life. It was tragic! It was not the possibility of imminent death (it was heartbreaking, yes!) that is tragic but the thought that I will be dying and has NOT completed my mission (my desires) is! It felt like that dying with out a completed mission is just going through life like a passing wind.

So, I begged for His mercy that He grants me healing and extend my life. This year I am pronounced Cancer – survivor. (Thank you, God, my Lord!)

It’s November. Two months to 2019.
We still have two months, Lord, to erase – off another item or two from this year’s plan. It is still a long period of time.

Let me not be another dose of a passing wind.
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How are doing in your yearly plan? Thank you for reading.

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